Friday, January 17, 2014

Daily Draw - Modified Druid Craft

Daily Reading - 11/17/14

Last weekend while at a basketball game, I ran into my abusive ex bf. I never thought I would run into him being that it was from a town that neither of us live in, and he has no daughter! It was a girls basketball game. For cryin out loud!

I moved a town away from him just so that I could avoid him from the rest of my life. That day was the second time I had seen him in this NEW year! I seriously need to start some spell work here, and get rid of him from my head, my town, and from appearing in my life anymore. I don't want to hurt him, I just want him to avoid me like a plague.

Tomorrow I have another basketball game to go to. Or should I say three! It is an all day thing. Four hours of sitting in the crowd hoping not to see HIM! I have spent the last several house crying my eyes out because the thought of seeing him makes me shake, and my body becomes physically ill. All of the hurts come flooding back, and it's been three years!

To some who ask why I just can't stop thinking about him all together, I say "do you really think I want to feel this way?" I am not doing this on purpose. I have ZERO love for him. In fact, I believe I don't even hate him anymore. I just don't want him anywhere near me. If I never see him again, I would be very happy. Dating him has forever changed who I am as a person. He took from me more than I could even put here in words.

Anyhow, I did a reading tonight with my newly modified Druid Craft Tarot. I trimmed the borders off from it, and like it so much better now. It is so colorful and vibrant. A real favorite now. My question to my cards was, "Tell me how tomorrow will go for me - body, mind, and spirit." I didn't ask a yes or no question, because I was afraid it would freak me out more if it said he will be there.

Druid Craft Tarot - modified
Here is what I drew:

Body - Prince of Wands - I take this as enjoying leisurely travel with enthusiasm. Hmm.

Mind - six of swords - Comfort, solace and renewal. Hmm again.

Spirit - ten of cups - Rainbows appear after it has rained. ( how literal did I take that? my tears were definitely falling like rain today.)

Summary - It looks like I will enjoy spending time with my daughter tomorrow, and find comfort while there, which I take to believe that I will not see him. And all my crying will have been for nothing.

Now let's see what really happens. A follow up will definitely be posted tomorrow. My Lenormand gave me the number 8 for tomorrow during my monthly planning. 8 is for death or endings. It might be there to warn me of my destructive self talk too.

Praying for rainbows!
Blessed Be!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Writing from the soul - My eyes

Future Visions by Chris Buzelli 
These eyes are no longer my own...

These eyes are no longer my own. I used to open them every morning and close them at night without seeing the colors of life. I could not distinguish between purples and pinks, or yellows and oranges. I was blind to so many things. I was born into a life of racism and hate. Anything that was not my idea, or my opinion was wrong. I had zero tolerance for anything different. I conformed to popular belief and lived my life in a robotic state of mind. Little did I know that I would someday look through different eyes.

These eyes are no longer my own. I now wake in the morning ready to embrace the day, and close my eyes at night ready to dream. I see the different shades in color, and my color palette expands on a regular basis. I am no longer blind, but fully awake. The life that I was born in has no hold on me, and I have gladly cut the strings. I can see both sides of any point of view and I no longer look for ways to fit in with those around me. When things do not please me, I speak out against them. I have less now to fear than I did before. Little did I know that I would love these eyes and gladly wear them as my own.

Blessed Be!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Writing from the Soul - Death

Death - Tarot Card by jasonbeam on deviantART
Writing from the Soul - click to see what it is.

This is my first go round, but I thought it would be interesting and enjoyable.

You say it is dark, I say ....

You say it is dark, I say that it is transforming. I see the end of a life that has brought you happiness and tears. A time when the spirit is reborn and able to choose a new identity. A time when you can fully be who you truly are at last, but without a body to hold you in one place. A time to sore high, and meet those who have departed from you long ago. A chance to laugh and dance in spirit, and to love one another without end. I see past hurts and pain coming to a closure, and almost non existent. Colors will no longer look the same, but more vibrant and true. Rainbows will no longer be out of reach. Although in a different realm, you will be one with your creator again. You will no longer have to board an airplane to fly like a bird, or sit on the tops of trees. You will see for miles and miles without relying on divination tools to help you see pieces and parts. It will be your turn to start over and be reborn into a new life of your choosing, and having the opportunity to right all your wrongs and experience new things that you have not experienced before. This will be your chance to have thought provoking conversations with your spirit guides in order to plan the new life that will come into being. Death is not darkness, but the light that so many forget to notice. It is magickal and wondrous, and your chance to be totally free of any worries. It is life.

(I am not sure I made it to ten minutes of non critical writing, but I am happy with it.)

Blessed Be!

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Daily Draw - The Gaian Tarot

I was very happy and surprised to find my new Gaian Tarot deck in the mail today :)

I wanted to give myself a reading with it since it is so lovely.

Three card spread:
What the Universe wants me to be / Personal qualities required / Action required to attain it

What the Universe wants me to be: Elder of Water - The Elder of water has great experience seeking out things in nature. He has a peaceful core, and can remain calm in turbulent situations. Others seek his presence. He listens well, and spreads kindness to those who are around him. I take this as the Universe wants me to be of service to others. An ear for those who need to be heard, and a heart for those who need to feel warmth and compassion. I feel that I am really starting to come to this role on my own, which makes me feel awesome that I am on the right path for me. :)

Personal qualities required: The Sun - I take this as a card that is telling me that I need to get out in the sun and enjoy life more. I have been closed away too long, worrying about what other people think of me. I need to get out in order to restore my health and well being. When I bring joy into my life, I can properly do the same for others.

Actions required: The Emperor - This card tells me that I need to make decisions based on my logic instead of my emotions from now on. I definitely have been guilty of letting my emotions sway me in the past. It also tells me that I should polish my skills as a leader now so that I can be secure enough with myself to benefit others.

This all makes great sense to me. These cards are great. I am going to thoroughly enjoy using them. I look forward to learning more about them, one card at a time.

Blessed Be!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Midnight Madness Lenormand

midnight madness lenormand - by btrejo
Midnight Madness Lenormand
Back by popular demand! Once I sold out of these cards, I had no intentions to reprint them until next year, but I kept getting asked if I would print some more. So with that said, I want to say thank you to everyone who has expressed interest. I have gone ahead and listed them for sale again. I hope this excites you as much as it does me!

Click the title above and it will take you to my etsy store.

BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND - will be printed on demand and sent to you. :)

These cards were inspired by Samhain. They are very nice, although a bit darker than most others. They were made to my own taste. Some will love them, some won't. Personally, I love cards that radiate a lot of energy and color throughout. I tried to stick with the traditional names of the cards. They'd make a great Halloween deck, but also can be used for everyday readings as well. I put up a few pictures of the cards for you to see. If you get them, please leave feedback if you are happy with your purchase.

Blessed Be!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Relationship Overview Spread

Relationship Overview Spread

I have no idea if this spread has been used before, but I came up with it in my mind tonight when wishing to get a glimpse into a friends relationship.

I have concerns about my friend. Our communications have been interrupted, so I want to make sure my friend is doing Ok.

The cards are numbered 1 - 3 across the top,
1-3 across the bottom, and the two in the middle are 1 - 2.

Top Row represents HIS body, mind and spirit. Bottom Row represents HER body, mind and spirit. The two middle cards are the relationship over all.

Him -
1. Body: The High Priestess rx -Passion, conceit, lack of knowledge and loss of spirituality.
2. Mind: 5 of Pentacles - Loss, grief and lack of the tangibles in life.
3. Spirit: The Devil rx - Sleep, lethargy and lack of hope.

Her -
1. Body: 7 of Pentacles rx - Anxiety, failure and stress.
2. Mind: Justice rx - Complications, bigotry, imbalance and legal issues.
3. Spirit: 4 of Cups - Weariness, disgust and aversion.

Together -
Queen of Cups - Love, loving wife
10 of Cups rx - False heart, violence. and indignation.

Deck used is The New Palladini.